Posts tagged ‘life’

May 23, 2012

Floor of Failure

Sometimes I look in the mirror

and you rear your ugly head

I try to pretend you aren’t there

that you don’t exist

Then I trip and fall flat on my face

You are ever-so present

and all I want to do is cry

give up and lie

on the floor of failure

Tonight I’m facing this

monster that paralyzes me

with fear with invisible power

I can’t put my finger on it

The intangible terror is

dancing with you in

my head

My mouth is dry and my

words are gone

What you don’t know, though

is that I just took my

first step

to no longer being under

your thumb.

May 22, 2012

My Love for Cilantro

I really enjoy cooking. Honestly, I really enjoy food all around. If anyone knows me, they know that I love to entertain guests and cook meals. Since my husband, Jason, and I have been in Wisconsin, I have hosted several holidays and one very special thirtieth birthday party 🙂

I’m always looking for new recipes that reinvent old favorites. If I can make it from a box, then why can’t I make it from scratch? Some of my favorites are baked macaroni and cheese, white chicken chili made with a tortilla soup base, and homemade salsa.

My two favorite ingredients in my salsa are fresh lime juice and freshly chopped cilantro. I love cilantro. Cilantro adds this wonderful fresh flavor to anything you put it in. When I describe it to people (because, yes, I enjoy describing the flavors of my favorite herbs to people all the time), I compare it to that light freshness that mint has, minus the minty flavor.

I was recently looking for a recipe for a tuna salad that didn’t incorporate any pasta in it. (I’m trying to be more conscious of the empty carbs I eat) I cam across this Salvadoran Tuna Salad. It has tuna, chopped tomato (I used halved grape tomatoes), fresh lime juice, chopped and seeded jalapeno, a little mayonnaise, and freshly chopped cilantro 🙂 Yes! It also calls for a chopped onion but I don’t put raw onions in anything but my salsa. You serve it on crackers. This recipe was delicious! Very light and tasty. I eat it by itself, without the crackers, and it is amazing. The tomato, lime, and cilantro give it freshness of salsa and the tuna and mayo give it a nice body. It is a great combination of flavors.


I look forward to taking this salad/dip to more cookouts and gatherings in the coming summer. I found a similar recipe that calls for freshly pressed garlic, balsamic vinegar, and olive oil instead of mayo. I’ll have to report my findings on how that turns out.

I’m always open to recipe ideas. If anyone has something delicious they would like to share, please do! I would also love to hear what you all think about this recipe. Thanks for reading!

February 10, 2012

Finding God in the Small Stuff

Last night was one of those nights that just makes you feel good and confident in God’s workings in our lives. We started our next series of connection groups at church. We meet at someone’s house once a week in a small group setting and talk about Sunday’s message as it relates to our own lives. I chose to take part in the women’s group during this series of messages and last night was our first gathering. It was simply incredible! We laughed and joked and even cried a little. It was amazing at where God took our conversations. By the end of the discussion it was like we couldn’t be farther from the point of the discussion, yet we were closer to the point than at the beginning.

The questions that started this whirlwind of conversation were; How do we clean out chaff or clutter in our lives that can distract us from where God wants to lead us? and  When we do make an unwise decision, or mess up, how do we let go of that and forgive ourselves so God can make something beautiful from it? We talked about how important it is to see God in everyday life. He is constantly weaving his goodness in and out of our daily lives. He takes our screw-ups and mixes in his goodness and blessings. All of a sudden, something we made a mess of, he makes beautiful. It may not be immediate, but it happens. Even the great things we do, his blessings make them better. The more we are able to see that in our lives and others’, the easier it will be to focus on where God wants us and the less we feel the need to keep trying so hard to be a “perfect” Christian.

So give it a try. Next time you hear a piece of someone’s story, look for God’s blessings in the making. If you see a beautiful sunset, think of God’s hands designing that beauty. Look at the way your dog gets excited when she knows you are taking her for a walk. Look at the cold, blizzardy snow and admire it’s beauty before you grumble about shoveling… or after if you forget 🙂 If you see a friend struggling through a difficult time (or if you going through a difficult time) pray for God’s blessings to shine through. He never abandons us. Eventually, we will appreciate the littlest things as a gift from God. Life is so much more beautiful that way.

On the way home after our connection group, I heard one of my favorite songs by Mumford and Sons “Roll Away Your Stone”. This isn’t a huge surprise, seeing as the CD is in my car right now, but still. I heard the words and thought how well they fit with the day’s theme:

It seems that all my bridges have been burned,
But you say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive with the restart

Remember God gives us grace minute by minute. We need to implement that practice with ourselves and others — but trust me, I know how hard that can be. Let’s start by finding God in the small stuff.

February 3, 2012

Here’s to the World of Writing

Recently, God has given me the urge to write. I love so much the world has to offer. I love the people who are placed in our life either for a moment or a lifetime. They are such blessings and everyone has a story worth listening to. Everyone is placed in your life for a reason and it’s important to cherish those encounters.

I love food. I really love eating it, but I also love making it. Cooking has become an unexpected passion of mine. Creating something tangible and useful can be so satisfying. Food is beautiful. The taste, the look, and of course the smell. Wonderful.

My biggest passion is music. I love to sing, write, and listen to music. I could have music playing all day long and never get tired of it. I have so much to say through music. Recently I have decided that music is where “it’s” at. I was given this gift and passion for a reason and it’s about time I start using it. I am on a constant search for ways to be more musical 🙂 I love it!

Well there’s a little about me to get this thing started. Hope I can keep this up!